Beta Tomorrow....Cautiously Optimistic

So, tomorrow is the day. It seems like it was forever ago that it was the Sunday before the retrieval. FOREVER ago. And here I am, the Sunday before the Beta. I broke down Friday night and took a HPT, I was loosing my mind. Although it was faintly positive, I was cautious, and didn't even tell C, because I haven't been testing all along like so many of you do and I didn't know if the trigger was totally out of my system. BUT...I got a darker line Saturday morning, and then I did tell C. It wouldn't be getting darker if it wasn't real! And this morning a little darker still. No mistaking it. If I were to be normal, which, I'm clearly NOT, then I would not be questioning whether or not I was pregnant at all. I would be happy. Of course I went out to get a digital to make sure it's on the case, too. It is!!! Yahoo!

Sooo.....I'm expecting good news tomorrow. Fingers still crossed. Like I said if I were normal....but I'm not!

Nerves (5 Days)

I'm nervous. I almost convinced myself that I should do an HPT tomorrow, but J talked me down off the cliff. Thank God! She's right, I couldn't possibly handle a false positive. I'm not afraid of a negative, because it could be wrong, and it's still early. A positive would probably send me into a frenzy. I would have to test constantly! Good thinking, no testing! I may not be testing, but I am constantly doing my mental symptom checking.