Hi! I have been all over the place and haven't blogged in what seems like forever. I also apologize for my lack of consistent commenting. I think part of it is I used to sit in bed at night and do these things and now the big belly is in the way! There's no more typing in bed, it just doesn't work out very well.
Soooo...things are going really well. I passed my glucose test with flying colors. Of course I had myself convinced I was going to fail and was completely nervous the whole time! And I found out last week that I'm anemic. I knew something was off, because I was getting headaches and feeling really tired. My next ultrasound is on Monday the 1st, and I can't wait to see Jackson and see how big he is. I know he must have grown significantly because, well, I have, and his movements are more intense. I feel a ton of rolling and although he still kicks a lot, there's more pushing and rolling around, and he seems to be covering more surface area. Like I'll feel him all over at once. He favors the right and that makes me nervous because I know that's where the placenta is. Which I'm sure means nothing really, I just don't want him to bash it too much!!!
My Birthday is next week, Wednesday. I have mixed emotions about it. Last year, it was horrible. C and I fought most of the day, I can't remember why, but I'm sure it was for some stupid reason! We were supposed to go out for dinner and didn't and we watched this horrible movie with a lady who had had a stillbirth. Then 3 days later we found out we'd lost Wyatt, and he was born on November 8th (which is my father's birthday. He passed away 18 years ago.). A week that I'd like to skip. C keeps telling me they're just dates. I know that, but they're not just dates to me.
My stepfather sent me a gift certificate to get a massage with my FAVORITE massage therapist, K. So I decided to book that on Monday, and then while I was booking it, I all of a sudden decided that I was going to add a facial. Honestly, I don't even know why, but I was just feeling it! I am trying to be positive and believe that everything is going great and will continue to go great.
I really want to do something special to honor Wyatt and my dad on their birthday, but I haven't figured it out yet...
hugs, honey. glad to hear from you and i hope that you get through the next couple of weeks with the same grace i have come to associate with you.
ReplyDeleteit wont be easy but you can do it.
xoxo
lis
So glad to hear you & baby are doing alright! Will be thinking of you as Monday nears and praying that you are blessed with peace and strength to sustain you through the difficult memories that lie behind you and hope that this time will be different ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteYou're just GLOWING in this post. :-) I'm so glad things are going well - 29 weeks 2 days!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHooray for 29 weeks! So exciting and wonderful!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure whatever you do to honor Wyatt and your dad will be comforting to you. Lighting a candle, releasing balloons, or even just taking some time to reflect on your memories of them. I'll be sending you love.
I'm also getting more rolls and swings than kicks. Every night, we're playing with Babel for almost an hour while he makes me a semi-talented belly dancer. It initially freaked me out, but I'm okay with it now.
ReplyDeleteI will send lots of love your way on the 8th.
I've been praying for you daily! You're going to do great next week - it will be emotional and SO hard, but you're so much stronger than you know. Let Jackson bring you comfort.
ReplyDeleteThe one year anniversary is so hard but you will find the right way to celebrate :) Congrats on passing your glucose :)
ReplyDeleteLove, love, love 29 weeks and counting!!!
ReplyDeleteThinking today is your birthday....hoping it's better than last year and sending you lots of wishes for a gentle and special day!
xoxoxo