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Thursday, May 13, 2010


So, I'm sure everything is alright. I still have all my symptoms, but I am scared to death. I look every time I wipe (sorry, TMI!) not that I've ever had a miscarriage like that because I haven't. I was scared in the beginning with Wyatt, too, but this is even worse.

I am trying to remember that every little pain doesn't mean something is wrong. I definitely have what I would describe as as achy abdomen. It's off and on, and it seems to be worse if I've had a long day on my feet. Like I've said before it feels like I've done too many sit-ups. I had it with Wyatt, too. This is normal, right? I get so nervous.

I cannot wait for my ultrasound on Monday. Once I see that (those) little heartbeat(s), I will feel so much better. The waiting is like torture. I think your uterus should come with a window! I NEED to see what's up in there!

So, for now, I'm thinking good thoughts and praying that the weekend flies by....


  1. Sending you some love. I know EXACTLY what you mean and how scary these early weeks are. I cried so much out of fear when I first was pregnant. Keep yourself busy this weekend and I hope Monday is here before you know it. I'm thinking of you!

  2. Waiting is so hard! Thinking of you!

  3. Oh, sweetie, I'm almost 30 weeks, and I STILL look every time, and I still panic about every pain and ache. It just means that you love your little one with all your heart, and that you miss Wyatt. HUGS.

  4. Thank you guys! Your comments made me feel better!

    Cheryl and Angie: Your blogs have been an amazing inspiration to me, thank you so much.

  5. Hi! I just wanted to drop by and say thank you for commenting on my blog. I took a little break after my bad news, but now I'm back. I'm so happy to hear about your amazing Beta numbers and I hope that tomorrow;s ultrasound is amazing!

  6. I still have moments when I think this is all one amazing dream and I will wake up soon enough! I am 19 weeks today and most of the time I still look after I wipe.. it's pretty normal to have all these feelings because we have had such a hard time getting to where we are. Keep rubbing that belly and keep thinking that your baby (ies) are strong and healthy and after all the heartache now is your time to be happy! Cannot wait for your u/s update!!

  7. Good luck tomorrow! I had a ton of spotting/bleeding with Jillian early on and I never got over my fear of going to the bathroom because I was terrified of what I would find.

  8. I am almost out of the first trimester and I still look for blood or anything funny when I wipe...its the nerves of pregnancy after loss. They say with each subsequent pregnancy you feel the aches more. *Hugs*