Snoring

Right now, I'm listening to Lux snore. One of my favorite sounds! She's home and feeling WAY better! I am just thanking god that C found that inhaler and that we brought her to the other hospital. I think they were amazing. She's still a little groggy, and exhausted, but she got up and ate dinner and seemed really excited about it, so that's great! By the time C went to pick her up (he wouldn't let me go, because I've come down with his damn cold!), her heart rate had been holding steady at about 100ish. Which they said is normal for her. They shaved the tops of her paws for the heart monitoring, and a part of her leg for her IV. They say she won't have any long term effects from this.  I can't wait to spend the day with her tomorrow, as C is headed to deal with the contractor at one of our buildings and I'm staying home to try to get rid of this damn cold.

I forgot to write that I went to the OB yesterday, and everything was great. He said the Peri had some other tests he wanted me to do- lupus anticoagulant and Anticardiolipin Antibodies. I went today and had the blood drawn and then goggled them. I'm really surprised that my IVF Doctor didn't run these. They would seem like pretty standard tests to run after a loss like I had, and they ran a million tests! I'm hoping they come back negative. It makes me nervous that I should be on a higher dose of Lovenox and baby aspirin, which is what they said they'd do if they come back positive. Hopefully, the tests will come back quickly. I might call tomorrow and just ask if they have a time frame on them. 

And now it's time to sleep! I'm in the guest room with Lux lounging and taking up her 75% of the bed..... 

Lux

I know that I don't talk about her all the time, but she definitely gets her mentions. I just wanted to talk about how much this dog means to me. She is the light of my life. I 'm frequently accused by C of loving her more, because of all the concern and love she gets. When I lost Wyatt, and I lay on the couch for hours crying, she never left my side. She is always there for me, no matter what. I honestly couldn't ask for a better dog. She listens to me (cocking her head as though she understands), she knows when to cuddle and when to just leave me alone. I love her more than I can adequately express with words.

 Tonight I came home around 5:30 or so, she came rushing out to meet me, ran around the yard for awhile, and then came in and ate. Right after eating, she came in and laid on the rug near us in the living room. Everything seemed normal. Then she got up. I assumed she'd go and scratch at the door, when I didn't hear it, I went in to see if she'd just decided to lay on her bed in the dining room. She had had diarrhea all over. She NEVER goes to the bathroom in the house and she was acting funny. Then she went into the living room and I went over to hug her and felt that her heart was going a mile a minute. I freaked out. C, who is used to my dramatic nature, tried to tell me to just relax, but I knew something was wrong. Of course the regular vet was closed by this time (6:30) so I called the emergency place and headed there. I could see her heart going crazy while we drove. I was freaking out. C didn't come, but I didn't really care. Once there, they triaged her and then we waited while she panted and her heart went crazy. There was another very sick dog being taken care of. It was probably close to 8:00 by the time they took her. The vet kept trying to attribute the heart rate to anxiety, but there was no way, because she'd had it at home! C came and joined me, they ran a million tests, did X-Rays, and the only thing that came back really off was her potassium and phosphate, the potassium was so low that the Vet actually said she thought the reading was just plain wrong. Period.  Her heart rate was still 160. Normal for dogs her size is 60-80, but she didn't seem all that concerned about this. Of course, we were! They offered to watch her overnight, but said she seemed fine, other than the heart rate and we took her home (11:00). We got home, and C insisted I eat something. While I was making something, he came into the kitchen with his inhaler- "I know what she got into!" I freaked out, she'd bitten the inhaler. I called the Vet back, who had me call poison control, who then sent us back to the vet. She needed fluids, potassium, and to have her heart rate monitored! On our way there they called us and said they had to send us to another emergency place that's about 45 minutes away, because they didn't have the right fluids. C drove like maniac, and when we got there, although she seemed a little weak, she was still interested in smelling everything! I really liked this Vet right away, and she said that she was really happy that Lux looked so good.

They have her on all kinds of stuff to get her potassium and phosphate back to normal, and they're monitoring her heart all night. She's never been anywhere but with family overnight and I've never spent a night in this house without her. They said she'll be ok. And hopefully she can come home tomorrow. I just wanted to ask everyone to keep her in their prayers. I just keep thinking of her in that cold  crate. Do you think she has a down comforter???? I'm going to guess not. I can't wait to see her tomorrow and cuddle her.

Allergies?

I'm so worn out. I over did it yesterday and now I'm paying for it. I really thought that I wasn't doing too much, but I had a meeting with some perspective tenants, did a whole lot of stair climbing and standing around and then of course didn't make it home until 7:30pm. By the time I made dinner it was 9:30. And of course C is still sick so he couldn't help. Oh yeah and did I mention the argument? We had a huge argument regarding a decision that I made and I had to use the last of my energy to fight it out. (For the record, I made a good decision, I just may not have gone about it in the way that he wanted me to!) Oh, and when I woke up to pee in the middle of the night, I had a ridiculous sore throat on the right side. I'm pretty sure this is from the post nasal I've developed from my unrelenting allergies, but I'm praying I don't get whatever C has.

Anyway, today, I have been sitting on the couch relaxing and working on paperwork for the new tenant, I'm hoping that the pain by my belly button (which is back) and the sore throat get the hell outta here with a little rest!

20 weeks 4 days

AND....I took a belly pic yesterday!!! Here it is!

I was wearing these damn corduroy pants that seamed like a great idea until I got to the meeting and it was about 10 degrees hotter there! I was very sweaty!

Thursday

Jackson 19 Weeks

So. here are the ultrasound pics! She actually gave us a whole bunch of the 3D ones, but I like this one where he has his hand up by his face.

My massage was awesome, but I slept in the guest room last night and I'm back here tonight. (The mattress sucks!) C is sick. Coughing, sneezing, runny nose, etc. Definitely nothing I want! So, Lux and I decided we'd let him have the big Tem.purpedic bed and we'd head to the guest room! The only plus is that Lux gets to sleep with me in here. We don't let her on our bed because of C's allergies. I love to cuddle with her.

Update

So...I'm feeling a little better. I did call my Doctor yesterday. The pain on the side of my belly button was almost totally gone by then and he said that I could come in if I wanted to , but he agreed with the Doctor on call and thought that it also had to do with the round ligaments. Of course by the end of the day yesterday, I was exhausted and having shooting pains on the sides. These I know are round ligament pain, but boy do they hurt.

I have some pretty major lower back issues. My left lower back is always in pain, even when I'm not pregnant. I have a ton of morning where I cant even stand up straight. I've gone to chiropractors, but as soon as you stop going on a regular basis, it stops working. I know that this is from my gardening and it's just gotten worse over the years. Now, I'm pretty sure that it's contributing to the issues in the front. I noticed today that when I bend over, which hurts so much, I actually try to avoid it, I am clenching my abdomen! Then this causes pain around my uterus. Ugh. I have a massage in the morning with my FAVORITE massage therapist, K. She's amazing, and I'm sure she'll be able to help me out. I just know she will. I actually spoke with my primary care, but she advised against try a chiropractor unless I find one that is comfortable treating a high risk pregnant lady.

 ***I want to say that I'm not complaining, well, not really. I will happily take whatever I get dished out, for Jackson to get here healthy, but every little pain makes me worry and freak out, so things often are worse emotionally.*

I can't wait to see K and have her work her magic!

August ICLW

Hello, hello!!! I know, a day late, but I'm always a little behind. I want to say thank you in advance for visiting. A short version of my story is to the right, here's the longer version. Right now I am 19 weeks 6 days pregnant with our baby boy...Jackson.

First of all, I haven't scanned my ultrasound pics yet. For the record, my desk is also completely covered with stuff I have to deal with, so I guess I'm just behind.

I worked on Friday, and C helped me. This is the first time he has really helped me with work. I think it went ok. There was a lot of bending and stooping for me because I had all the day lily and hosta flowers stems to cut at multiple properties. Then yesterday, we had my cousin's wedding, and I did a lot of standing. I paid for it today! C and I had gone to do some shopping for him. (This in itself is a huge deal, because he usually does not do any clothing shopping at all! I just buy and return....lol) We hadn't even been at it that long and we were headed back to the car, I started to have some pretty uncomfortable pain on the right side. When I got in the car, I was able to recognize that it was coming from to the right of my belly button, and it was tender to the touch. My first instinct was gas. I've definitely had pain like this from gas before. We headed to P.anera to grab some lunch and I tried to massage it, move around, etc. I felt better after getting up and walking into P.anera, but worse again when I got into the car. When we got home, I layed down and took a little nap, hoping that would make it go away, I laid on my left side. When I got up, it was still there! And pretty sharp. So, I called the doctor. My guess was that this was some sort of stretching/crowding pain. There are only 4 OB's in my area and on the weekend and nights they all rotate being on call. My OB wasn't on today, but the OB I had when I was pregnant with Wyatt was on call. Awkward!!! I would think that someone like that would totally understand why I couldn't go back to that office, based just on the fact that that was where I found out we'd lost Wyatt, but he's strange! Anyway, he called right back and I explained who I was, said, that maybe he remembered me (um, I assumed he would, because he probably doeasn't have many patients with late second trimester losses each year!). He just said, "Yeah, I remember you." Anyway, he said it has something to do with the height of my uterus and my belly button being irritated by the expanding uterus, but I should follow up with my Doctor tomorrow. It's till painful, but I took it easy for the rest of the evening.

C has officially banned me from most work and so I need to write a letter to my clients explaining the situation. I honestly haven't even told some of them I'm pregnant. Mainly because I really never see them anyway.

It's a...........

BOY!!!! I figured I'd get that out of the way! It was actually the first thing that we saw. The tech turned on the machine just as she was asking if we wanted to know the sex, and there it was!!! His name will be (is) Jackson Wyatt.


I was so nervous sitting in the waiting room, and freezing! They had the ac way to high. When we got called, I felt like I recognized the tech, but I wasn't sure. A few minutes in I asked her if she worked at the hospital and she said yes. I'd seen her there a few times. Once before I started IVF for some initial tests my OB/GYN was doing and once when I over stimmed with in the very beginning with Wyatt. Before I even knew I was pregnant. Anyway, she is really nice and easy going. I cannot stand getting an ultrasound from someone who is unhappy. You have to keep looking at them and trying to guess if they're seeing something bad! I told her all about Wyatt and what had happened. She talked to us the whole time and every time she'd measure something, she'd tell us that it looked great. She even did some 3D/4D pictures for us that were adorable. I usually find them kinda creepy, but I guess when it's your baby, somehow they look cute.

The Peri, Dr. H, came in to consult with us and take a look himself. He was great. We went over my whole history and he seemed to think that everything seemed to be being handled properly. He is going to see me for ultrasounds every month to monitor Jackson's growth. He thinks this is the best way to make sure everything is going well. Right after this I went straight to my OB appointment across town, and Dr. H had already requested my records as well as sent over a recommendation that they put me on thyroid meds. I have Hoshimoto disease, and I've been on meds for it before, but I've been able to go years without having to take anything. My #'s are never perfect, but they tend to be in an ok range. I'll take whatever I need to to keep Jackson safe! I'll do an update tomorrow with weight, etc.

On another note....I can't wait to start his nursery! Oh and ultrasound pics to come tomorrow!!!!

Nervous

So, tomorrow is the day that I've been anxiously awaiting! Our anatomy scan and the meeting with a perientologist. Now, the nervousness is setting in. I'm praying that everything looks great and that all we hear tomorrow is good news. My OB really doesn't believe in extra ultrasounds, etc, in the beginning, but now, we will set up a plan with the perientologist for the next 21 weeks.

I'm praying for all happy news and anxiously awaiting the gender!!!!!

17 Weeks 2 Days...

We're at 17 weeks 2 days!!!! It's amazing, because in someways it feels like it's going so fast, but in other ways, I wish I had a fast forward button so that I could have this baby with me safe and sound, and it feels like this is dragging.

Some updates-
(Some people seem to do these and I thought it might be cool to start....I'm always late to the game!)

How far along: 17 Weeks 2 Days
Weight: - 1lb (lost 3lbs in the beginning and now I've gained 2lbs)
Maternity Clothes: Yes
Stretch Marks: None, yet.
Sleep: Not so great. I get up at least 3 times a night to pee and usually have trouble getting back to sleep.

Memorable Moment This Week: The baby is much more active and stronger which is awesome!
Movement: Still not strong enough for C to feel, but I know it will be soon.
Food Cravings: No, not really.
Gender: Cannot wait until the 16th!!!
What I'm Looking Forward To: My anatomy scan!!

Feelings: Some days are great and others are filled with worry. There are so many things that can go wrong that I had NO idea about with Wyatt. Hell, we're not even anywhere near 100% why we lost Wyatt. It never fails that at some point in the day, I become horrified and the names of all these things start running through my head. I start to check off the ones I've eliminated and then I start to worry about the ones still lingering on my long list. This seems to happen a lot at night when I can't fall back asleep. Deep breath. 

 

So, C wants me to stop working. I will admit that this summer has been outrageous heat wise. And being pregnant that just makes everything worse. Nothing like gardening in ridiculous humidity with the sun blazing down on you! YUCK. My goal is to make it to September. We'll see. I'm not working everyday (we also own rental buildings and I deal with these, so that is my other job.) and I'm not even working full days, especially not in the heat.