Monday- 7 Days till Beta!!

I am so exhausted, I think it's from the Crinone. I have definitely had some ovary pain and cramping on Saturday and a little yesterday. The boobs are starting to get sore and feel heavy, too. The boobs could definitely be from the Crinone as well.  The fact that it gives you pregnancy symptoms is like a sick joke. I mean here I am analyzing every twing, and then I have to keep reminding myself of the damn Crinone!

So.....I week from today! I know that really I probably wouldn't be feeling any symptoms yet anyway, those little babies would be just snuggling in.

I've entered the stage where I'm afraid this isn't going to work. I still feel really positive, but what if it doesn't? I guess we just go forward. I'm a planner. I really like to know my next move. Unfortunately with this, there's so much waiting!

I'm just going to stay positive and pray that this is it.

ICLW

Welcome! Welcome!

Ok...tomorrow is transfer day! Yay!!! I'm really hoping that the embies look fantastic and that we'll have some to freeze. If they're not fantastic, I feel better knowing that Dr. B is ok with transfering 3. I'm sure that some of you think I'm crazy, but I really feel like this gives us a better chance. Hopefully, we won't need to do the 3, because we will have 2 that are FAN.TAS.TIC!!!

I scheduled a massage for tomorrow morning. I decided against doing the acupuncture this time. Mainly because I feel like the goal is to be relaxed during the transfer and last time, I think the acupuncture actually made me anxious. C was waiting for me outside, and then I had another session after and all I wanted to do was go home and get on the couch. I love my massage therapist, and I always leave there feeling really relaxed and great.

So, that's the plan!!!! And tomorrow, I will start my countdown. And just as a warning, this time I plan to document my "symptoms" during the two week wait.

Accomplished (6 Days)

That's right...I said 6 days!!! The two week wait is such a strange thing. For these two weeks, you get to hope and dream. Hell, you get to kinda sorta be pregnant. There's no drinking, no heavy lifting and you have to take extra good care of yourself. Don't get me wrong I can't wait to actually know that I am (not even going there with I might not be) but this time around, I've decided that I don't hate the two week wait. It's letting me be hopeful, and happy-ish. Something I haven't really felt in awhile. C and I were talking last night and all of a sudden I realized how far we'd come since we lost Wyatt. For one, I'm not counting the weeks, and even though we just passed his due date which was very hard for me, for us, I found myself looking at his ultrasound pictures today and smiling. He looked just like me, and in the ultrasound you can see that he has my little nose (it looked way cuter on him!).

I'm thinking about my friend, J. She had her level 2 ultrasound yesterday and they saw a cyst on the baby's brain. There are no other marker's for anything and she had done the genetic testing with 1 in 5000 odds for chromosomal abnormalities. Both the maternal/fetal medicine specialist and her OB are reassuring that it's relatively normal about 1 in 100, and they are even saying no amnio, but of course she's still worried. And I totally get it. I know that baby is going to be just fine, but why can't things just go smoothly? Why can't everything just be perfect? Sending love and prayers to her and her husband...and that beautiful baby.