So, I survived! The time that I got to spend with my sister, JR, mending our relationship was worth enduring the shower.
For the most part I was fine at the shower. There was a moment when one of JR's friends, who she is not close to at all, asked if it was my mom's first grandchild. She asked me, I couldn't answer, I would've started crying. I just nodded. If I could have spoken clearly without tears, I would have said, "No, I lost my son, Wyatt, he was the first grandchild." But, I couldn't and I didn't.
I will write more tomorrow. Today was VERY long and so was yesterday, I'm headed to bed.
Well done!! You must be so proud of yourself. I would have burst out in tears before the end of that person's question. Sounds like enduring the shower was positive all around.
ReplyDelete*huge hugs* You did an awesome job. You know in your heart that Wyatt is the first.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you survived! Sounds like you did great! ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI feel so bad every time I say, "Yes, she's the first" - because my Maddie is and always be the first. We know that they're first in our hearts, though - and Wyatt will always be there.
ReplyDeleteThanks everybody!
ReplyDeleteAngie- I hadn't really thought about how hard it will be when I get pregnant again. People asked me all the time with Wyatt if he would be our first. I guess you just hold it in your heart.
I am glad to hear that you were able to enjoy the baby shower! I am so sorry for your loss, I am sure the loss will always be with you. I hope today is a good day.
ReplyDeleteHello - I saw a comment of yours over on The Expecting Father. I too have MTHFR and suffered many losses before we were blessed with our little boy (now 6). I just wanted to stop by and offer you encouragement, and let you know that even though we don't know each other, I'll be praying for you. :)
ReplyDeleteAll the best ~ Clew