Lack of sleep

I woke up at 4:30am this morning, and I couldn't fall back asleep. That is until 5:50am which was about 10 minutes before I had to get up. I woke up because I was having a dream in which I was trying to find a bathroom. I had to pee. For some reason none of the bathrooms seemed to be clean enough or private enough. Well, good thing I guess, because when I did wake up, I had to rush to the bathroom. And  I guess it's a good thing I didn't find a suitable bathroom in my dream! When I wake up in the middle of the night, my mind goes in a million different directions. I think about all these things that seem ok during the day, but suddenly coupled with my insomnia become horrific and need to be figured out immediately.

The nurse called with my results and I'm staying on the same dose, she said the RE thought my estrogen was rising nicely. So, I have an ultrasound and blood work on Wednesday morning. I'm getting very nervous/excited. I think C said it really well today. It's like we have all this hope right now, but we only have the hope up until we get that phone call and then it either is or it isn't. I have a ton of hope and he's right, but I'm the glass is half full person. And I think the phone call will be a good one.

Listen to me, I've already fast forwarded to that phone call. We're not there yet.......